I don’t know about you, but over the last 14 weeks or so of lockdown in the UK, I’ve not ventured further than about 2 miles to our local supermarket. As a person who loves being around people and loves getting out and about, the idea of being nervous about going out scared me more than going out itself.
But, as time has gone on I’ve been finding myself creating excuse after excuse as to why I shouldn’t go out.
Getting my husband or son to do the shopping, only visiting one supermarket if I absolutely had to and limiting myself to the school run to help my daughter out as she’s a key worker.
These few journeys felt familiar and safe. I know what I’m meant to be doing. I understand the rules at the supermarket. I know the one way system the school has instigated so I don’t have to worry about getting anything wrong.
I think another part of the issue is that my only real window into the outside world has been through social media and online meetings via Zoom. I’ve had, as I’m sure many have, a sanitised and cossetted vision of life outside. My home office has become my sanctuary where previously it was a bit of prison cell that I’d get out of at any opportunity. Usually through a trip to Costa or Pret or a for a cuppa with a friend or business acquaintance.
Instead my office is safe. I can’t inadvertently breach any rules or break etiquette that I wasn’t even aware of. I can sit at the computer and tap into my virtual world safe in the knowledge that no one is going to hurl abuse at me for getting too close, ignoring a one way system or simply breathing too loudly!
So for anyone else who is feeling even remotely similar to me at the minute, I thought I’d just share my strategies for pushing through. They may help or you may need to find your own strategies, but whatever you do please don’t ignore the feelings and allow them to take a grip. Anxiety is just unnecessary worry about something that you have no control over and which in all likelihood won’t hurt you anyway.
Stay safe and stay well and remember if ever you’re feeling anxious there’s always someone to reach out to and if that’s me, then that’s absolutely fine.
If you don’t already, you can follow me on LinkedIn by searching for my name Beverly Thorogood, you’ll know it’s me as there’s lots of menopause references in my profile. Which incidentally doesn’t help with the whole anxiety stuff, but maybe that’s a subject for another da